Am I Selfish... Poem by hazem al jaber

do you think that i opened the doors to my feelings,
and lost its keys with my willpower..? ? ?

or do you think that its ashame with my athirst feelings,
to seeing you and to talking with you..? ?

or its my needs to irrigate from you without taking into consideration,
to your situation and your needs..? ?

or i became a selfish human, ...? ? ?
so, i only just wanted to own you,
without putting any respect to your feelings..

i sacrificed my feelings, like always.
i couldn't fight anymore.
everywhere is dark,
there is no light for me
i think even GOD left me alone
i need a miracle,
but it is impossible.
your love is safe in my heart until i die.