Alternation (C) 7-31-2009 Poem by Zahir Kijani

It's scary lookin at you from this particular position
On the black pavement the chalk make you look like composition
The note book my folk took cause of viewer discretion
My mind is super ludicrous with flows harder than erections
A deadly session my smile is puttin fear into assasins
Not famous but my flow is louder than the beats you blastin

I alternate and come off hardcore I adore the thoughts from my cranium
Rappers charge off like bulls but like santa claus I'm slayin em
Some think my mind is slow and goin the turtles pace
But slow and steady usually wins so yeah this is a rabbit race
I'm sick of bein the only one who ever asks where has my era gone
Everyone is flyin on beast with hot tongues like the niggas from eragon

Again I alternate

And the land of the treasure is lookin foggy and misty
I found the box marked with X buut my mind did a 360
Into the pool of disasters from the troubled thoughts of the heart
A mischievous fiend plannin to end my life when the everlastin start
Oldest of five I'm still alive and I meet every statistic
But I plan to continue my words and my bodythe same I risk it

Again I alternate

As I think of the tisket and the tasket
I'm the magical maestro but I can't seem to reappear my yellow basket
Datin back to stereotypical cartoons where the writers controlled facts
But I tend to seduce and distract Murder Inc. the same as Coal Black
Hearin feint cries from the baby so seeded fruits shut em up in Betty Boop
You see I'm a panther at heart man and I stand positioned ready to troop

Again I alternate

And in the thesaraus I'm the synonym for nerdy
I'm weirder than Al but I take the beatin continue ridin dirty
Tryin to escape from the back door like my kitty Yoshi
I get off on the dreams when Darth Vader force pulls and chokes me
Loved DBZ from the start but I'm fond of Kai, Chiaotzu, and Tien
We need a comic con in B-Lo for me to sneak to despite the troublethat I'll be in

Again I alternate

I hate life…I wanna f-in die
Everyday I freakin wake up I wanna f-in cry
Imma tell you somethin serious and nigga I never lie
In the dreams that I don't perish in only harder I begin to try
I basically say f you and the world and no need for a reply
I still try to cry no lie with no reply I'll rest peacefully when I die

Again I alternate

I need a date and there is one that I'm lovin
Sometimes I get nervous when I see it's my mothers van she pulls up in
My baby hopefully forever but it's a fray that I'm stuck in
The feeling I once had is startin to rekindle for her cousin
But I love her my mom does too but how long will that last
You say I'll marry rhem but now my step pops is out havin a blast

Again I alternate

I can't believe you I hate him and I hate you too
I can't believe you'd still come around after the s*** that you do
He never loved me well f em I don't need you either
Yo punk a** gon leave my mom cause you takin a breather
Then stay with the first nigga that abandoned us and can't loan me a dollar
Well I hope he's good to youand any questions man you know where to holler

Again I alternate

I never wanted them feeling this way
Feelin lionely and scared like somethin changed ever since that day
My brother know that stupid nigga purposely slept with a whore
I thought I alternated but I'm back to the bottled up feelins from before
She cried the witch cried I can't believe we called her evil and mean
In my room on my door post will remain the worst permanent scene

Again I alternate

I forgive you both as commanded to me at Matt 18: 21 and 22
So though the other two were pretty upset trust me I truly forgive you
I finally found spiritual knowledge like Maharishi you see
I shall forgive you for your sins so you're not retained, John 20 verse 23
But for your actions there are consequences and you know what I mean
It also rewards like yo preservation last part of 2nd Samuel 12 verse 13

My alterations are just a symbol of the "mes" within
They tell me I need an attitude adjustment but you see I don't need to give in