Alone Feels Like Forever... Poem by Olivia Braun

Forever alone, forever alone this heart in my chest is long lost and on its own
Cast this to the fires of hell as I feel the tears being too well
How if only I could change I would not have to suffer such limitless pain
So longing to have eyes gaze upon me, and see me as perfect just being me
Try and try but my efforts are in vain…
To love something with everything and never have it be returned in the same
I've played the game, the friend to always be, able to comfort and confide in… always happy
But it has come to where my playing is done, I can no longer sit idly by
I've lost that which I never really had, its darkened me and enriched my feeling mad
Giving up before I try, because I always thought I'd come across the right guy
This hollowing in my chest leaves me bereft searching for breath
Every time I'm reminded just how foolish I really am
Is this the only title I will hold? Punished for acting on what my heart has long to behold?
It grows so old, it wears down my very soul, and yet I still do not know
why I am any less right, why do I find I'm the only one wanting to fight for his eye
Why would others need to when they walk in and his heart is wide open
Just a chance, maybe it could be… But its most depressing knowing it will never be
Just in knowing that I want to turn my feelings back
Erase them I can't… forget them I won't… There the only things keeping me
If he knew the pain, would anything ever change
Or the same look of pity as he quickly dismisses me
Forever alone forever alone… The endless heart forever alone