Alive Today Poem by something changing

i dreamed i killed myself today
i swallowed the pills to kill the pain
but something happened: something strange
it seems the pain didn't go away
i remember the regret at what i'd done
i wanted to scream, wanted to run
but you can't run until death's done
and death wasn't done; i still wanted to run
to run away and hide my face
and waste away in my shame
and puke up the pills i'd swallowed today
but more than anything i wanted to wake
i didn't want to die this way
i wanted to take back the decision made
and lucky for me dreams are fake
because i am still alive today