Afraid To Fall-Bound To Dive Poem by Aria Siren

I stared at it
This gash
Tiptoeing along my collar bone
I stared at it
As the mirror played tricks
Making it look a little bit deeper
The bruise a little darker
The scab a little greener
I stared at it
And ran cold fingers over the pulsing precipice
Sliding my fingernail under the edge
I started to pull
Letting out a gasp
Hot knifes were searing me
With each millimeter
But I wanted to relive the pain
So I wouldn't forget
I wanted to keep this wound
From ever healing
I stared at it
The blood in little droplets
Holding onto the corners
Trembling with my heart
Afraid to fall
But bound to dive
I stared at it
And looked away
Put my hands in my pockets
Sunk to the floor
Lips shaking
I offered an apology
To the face in the mirror
And contented myself
With the scar it would leave behind
And the desire to see clearer