Addiction! Poem by Emma Jane Rae

I'm tired of feeling,
this way about you,
if only it had been a dream,
then none of this would be true,
every night i lay awake,
convinced that all your feelings,
must have been fake,
you bought me up to adulthood,
but you've done things,
i never thought you would,
you watched me as you smashed my heart,
i didn't wana know my mum acts like a tart,
your addiction to cheating,
your addiction to lies,
has led us all to painful goodbyes,
with you not in our lives,
and us not in yours,
if only you'd have shut,
all of those addictive doors,
and now im awake still asking why? ?
you must find it so easy,
to make me cry!