Acceptance: The Last Stage Poem by David Knox

I tried to deny it and reason
But I could only do so for a season
I could not see past my dreams
It's time to stop to cry and not lament
My idea of our feelings is not set in cement
I'm gonna end the childish screams
I won't fear those words 'just friends'
I'm ready to make amends
They say that acceptance is the last stage
So I'll STAIN mine on this page
I think I'm okay with it now
Don't ask me how
But I'm ready to say
That my love was just a dream, more fleeting than a 24-hour day
My love was just a dream because
Or maybe it never even was...
But this I know: you're only my dream girl in my dreams
Well I'm awake now
After much struggling it seems...
But awake and alive nonetheless
However i must confess
I'd say it's over but then... maybe it never started
So why do I feel broken hearted
But nay! I do not and I'll heal
This won't always be how I feel
I think I've come to accept
That this love I've kept
Is nothing more than an illusion
I suppose it's time to take off the mask
But I must ask
What even remains under?
When i changed so much for her
Not for good, but for bad
If I could be what I want I'd be glad
But who is that?
I already did 'All That I Did'
So even in my acceptance I find a new problem
I guess I must find my identity in the Son
And the One
Who saved me before
But what is under my mask?
I do not know...
And to where.... where shall I go?
Acceptance is the last stage
Now tell me what's after.... what's on the next page......