About The Stars Poem by Gina Albiek

Sometimes I stare at the sky, I see the stars shining, and I dream I’m a star, these stars are better than me and you and better than everyone living on earth, at least they are free to do and say whatever they want, at least they never tell lies, they're strong enough to say the truth, strong enough to express their feelings and share everything in their hearts, I hope I can be a star one day, I hope I can shine just the way they do, yesterday was full of tears, I hope these tears will bring back the years we've wasted crying, people have day & night, but for me it's always night, I can never see the light, every year millions of dreams and wishes are made,50% become true and 50% for the next year, but when you try everything to reach your dream and you couldn’t even touch it, so you try everything just to touch your dream but you couldn’t even see it, and so then when silence fills your life, you even forget your dream, and you start wondering what are dreams made of? ! you feel that you've lost your way back, you feel that you’re unwanted, you feel that you can’t fit in again, you feel that they're all better off without you, you disappear for a whole year thinking that they will all miss you and that when you get back they will ask you not to ever go again, but the ugly truth kills, when you know that they totally forgot you, and you feel that earth is too small for you to live inside it, you feel that air isn't enough for you to breath, in this situation there will be no need for you to live anymore, when it means nothing for you to live, when you sell your life for free because it means nothing, it is worth nothing, you don’t need it anymore, even saying Goodbye means nothing when the closest person to you doesn’t even care, he doesn’t even recognize you, when you try and scream hoping that the stars might hear you, when you say it out loud, things that you couldn’t even admit they're true, things that you never told yourself, you wish when you say them out loud someone pass by and hear you, you like him, but you can’t tell him, though you want him to know, so you keep it in your heart, and tears go down your face saying that you love him, but no one can read tears, you love him but you can’t stay next to him though you want to, the same feeling of wanting something that you cant want, loving something that you hate, it's always reverse, you’re scared of something before it even happens! And nothing can explain how you feel, when the only one you love leaves you to die in pain, when the only one you love can feel your weakness but left you, and you feel that time is passing so slowly and you can feel every single second, when you tried doing everything, and couldn't move not even a step forward, people pass by and you hear the laughter get high, you wish you can laugh too,   but unfortunately you can’t, you were the one to say nothing is impossible and now you’re the one to say it is impossible, you were the one to say dreams are made to be done, and now you’re saying your dream won’t ever be done, when you always say NEVER LOSE HOPE, but you already lost all your hope, what can you do when everything you believe in comes out to be all lies, when you discover you’re living a lie, and you don’t find a shoulder to cry on, you fell but didn’t find a hand to get you up, when they all lie to you thinking that if you know later it will be better, exactly like when a little girl asks about her dead father without knowing he's dead, and you just can’t tell her the fact that he was a vile criminal and he's probably now thrown in hell! What can you say to these innocent eyes, a heart that shines with love, a heart that glows in dark, a heart that never knew lies, I can’t believe this all change after several years, it changes to the exact opposite, you can’t trust anyone any longer, not even yourself, now obviously death is much easier than living, and you would rather die than see your friends getting further and further every day, they're all leaving you alone, darkness starts filling your empty life, you don’t want to open your eyes cause you’re scared you won’t see anyone next to you, but I advice you to open them, because sooner or later you will, but it might be too late, so then you will open your eyes and see nothing but blackness, it will be too late to regret now, cause your soul either went to heaven or to hell, perhaps it's heaven, you've got few moments to live, so don’t write cause no one will read, don’t cry cause no one will see, don’t scream cause no one will hear! ............
Could it be wors!