A Thinking Kind Of Man Poem by Linda A

I don't want this anymore
I want to let it go
I'm not who I was before
I have to show you so you know
That I gave away what I fought to gain
That I learn my lesson slow
I longed but my longing was in vain
Cause I lost a long time ago
I needed this but never realized the pain
I only saw illusions in shadow shows
And what I heard weighed on my brain
But I fought for this even so
My victory-now my ball and chain
My happiness now my woe
I thought myself insane
When I see my demons I say hello