~A Polygamist's Relationship With VOWel'S~
Eternal are the I's in misery
Those I's lie inside the lies
Within your eyes
I traced the lines long enough
To know where the point starts
I based my life around the space
Between our lives
The O in completeness
Was derived by a mathematical genius
What's owed is an ode to the one
Who knew and who knows
The U in understanding is often times demanding
The man without you is a man without I
A life without O is a life full of whY's
So if Y, O and U are grouped together with I
And an eternity full of E's set your heart at ease
Then the truth is I am you and you are I
The proof's in our reflection
As we stare into each others lives
We're lost inside each others eyes
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Poet's Notes about The Poem
it will be sort of long because there is many details I want to cover but I think it will make the poem seem a bit more alive.
So I was thinking about what a few readers had said and I would have to say you're all spot on
Given the reversal of roles throughout I would say there is a bit of redundancy or maybe an over usage of words that can be cut away without taking away from the writers intent.
Because I like to create and it's therapy for myself I enjoy writing and because I share It with others to read there will always be the readers perspective based on what they see
and the knowledge given as to what it is or may be about.
Then you have the writer's perspective of what it is actually about. Though for me sometimes freely giving away what a poem is about takes away from the experience of earning the possible knowledge
of what it is about.
I, myself, like to try and figure out what a poem is about but, only once I am done and have come to my conclusions do I like to have the writer share what it is about if they don't mind doing so. If they do that is 100% ok too as I like the mystery that surrounds it as well.
So I will explain in more depth what this poem actually means besides the obvious. Because I want people to understand the complexity of what is written But also because I want to connect with my readers so that when all is said And done we both walk away feeling satisfied and even if the reader isn't satisfied
I always will be. But I do strive to bring satisfaction to both parties. This poem was written with a few things in mind because it has a few meanings And my intentions were for it to have multiple meanings all seemingly related yet unrelated at the same time
So in short on the surface of the poem it's about a polygamist in 2 senses
1. Means to practice polygamy in zoological terms meaning to mate with more than 1 individual of the opposite sex.
2. Means to be in a relationship with multiple wives or husbands
Going a bit deeper into the poem
The VOWELS represent multiple personalities
A, E, I, O, U and Sometimes Y each vowel or letter has their own personality
BUT, they all stem from 1 core personality
So the poem is also about a man looking into the mirror staring into his eyes looking back at himself and his reflection and feeling as though he is trapped inside a lie he recognizes his face but each personality has it's own memories and feelings So at times memories tend to bleed into the other personalities thoughts
Which causes confusion, fear, anger, frustration, hopelessness
It's a man trying to identify with who he is but constantly coming up with different versions of himself So this man is desperately trying find a grip on reality and questioning over and over again Just what is real? ?
Let's look at one a few definitions of the word ETERNAL
1. Being without beginning or end; existing outside of time
2. Continuing without interruption; perpetual
3. Forever true or changeless
When I say eternal are the I's in misery this rings true
Because without the letter I in the word misery the word would not exist. Now you could change the spelling or describe misery with another word but it would no longer be The word misery that I have used.
The 'I' in the first paragraph also represents MYSELF
So therefore I lie and those lies
I can see inside my eyes when I look at myself
Because I am a lie I don't feel real and that's how I think at this point in the poem
Tracing the lines means to go over and over the same problem again
Looking at the contour of ones face and carefully examining every inch to see if something changes Waiting to see if there is something different but (to know where the point starts) always arriving back at the same conclusion Which is... that whoever he is he is always trapped inside the same body every time.
Basing his life around the space between our lives. means there is always something that leaves him feeling disconnected from who he really is. Now he is beginning to understand he is all of the personalities that reside within his body.
He's starting to take ownership of all of the personalities at this point
The O in completeness was derived by a mathematical genius
Now I am not schooled in geometry so I can not claim this part is entirely accurate mathematically speaking that is. But what I envisioned in this line...
Is a point, if you take the energy of a point and you expand it outward from it's center equally you can see a circle to me this is a perfect circle derived from a point. The point in this is the completeness of a whole. All the parts making up the 1 whole part and that is the point.
Point = Circle = Completeness = The point.
What's owed is an ode to the one.
In terms of 0's and 1's
Zero = Chaos, Disorder, a sort of nothingness
One= Creation, Order, something
But also THE ONE that understood So, because the CORE personality being THE ONE understood what was happening he, Is having this poem that I am talking about being dedicated to him Because he knew what the problem was and knows what is going on
The U = YOU, understands
People that understand are typically in life expected to take on more
in terms of life's problems because they understand so it's almost like a silent expectation
Meaning I wouldn't expect a person from a foreign land to understand what I might say to them If they have never studied or understood what I was saying in anyway, But I would expect someone who speaks the same language to understand me to a degree.
So that is why the U = YOU = MYSELF = I in MY understanding often times find life demanding The writer puts demands on himself because he understands what is going on
So a man without YOU = U Is a man without MYSELF = I
A life without O = wholeness/completeness is a life full of WHYS = Y's
Meaning that people all throughout their lives are looking to be made whole and to feel complete when they don't feel or think that, there are Many questions that arise
Those questions are the Y's = whys? But also I liked the idea in the vowel saying which is...
A, E, I, O, U and sometimes Y
For those that feel everything is going just the way that it should and are happy with the place they are atThose individuals will less often be full of the Y = whys Because in my observation they have little need to question why. So for me the Y is a very special personality because it is Y = WHY that is the catalyst To everything else that takes place. It is the Y that is the driving force behind this poem for myself anyways.
Now I could have also taken the direction with the...
Where's, Who's, What's, Why's, When's, and How's
But I felt that would over-complicate something that is already somewhat complex And I wasn't necessarily going for a Kafkaesque feel anyways
So if Y, O and U which spells the word YOU are grouped together with I and an eternity of E's set your heart at ease This paragraph is the realization that all the personalities need to come together and work together to be whole It's in this realization that the writer starts to feel some sort of relief which was a new feeling that put the writer at ease.
A continuing on of the realization that all his personalities come from the ONE The writer realizes this is the truth and says
Then the truth is I = MYSELF am YOU and YOU are I
The proof is on our reflection
As we stare into each others lives
Once again the writer takes it back to the beginning of the poem (FULL CIRCLE) to the (POINT)
Where he is looking in the mirror staring into his eyes
He comes to the sad realization that even though he understands
all of his personalities come from who he is and they are all him
He understands that HE/THEY are lost within each other
and though he feels compete in his understanding He still doesn't understand Y/WHY? in the big picture.
He realizes with every step he takes how much closer he really isn't in this eternity And even though he understands and recognizes the truth about himself He still feels as though this reality is all a lie. And it's in this moment the writer could say the beginning line all over again
Eternal are the I's in misery
Those I's lie insides the lies
Within your eyes.
Thank you for taking the time to read this very long and detailed explanation of this poem Hope you can maybe walk away with a greater appreciation of what it is that was written Because I know I have in trying to explain it. Allan Gerard~
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