A Different Breed Of Sorrow Poem by Hasan Haskovic

Slowly slipping into decadence
Perhaps to leave some room for silence
But even though I have so much to give
I can not seem to grasp the ideals of the life I live

Please, forgive me
My lungs shiver with each intake
I have so much to forgive, and so much to yet see
Millions of confessions to make
But rather give my place to silence
And let the remorse die off without trial
For sanity's sake

To me it is not clear
If it can be named as fear
The emotion that I feel
Or if I am afraid to replace my shadow
So that I thread upon my face with my own heel
...I'm barely even sure what's real

I know very well
That I must be the change that I wish to see
But I've been nowhere at all this whole time
Not certain who's I am and what is mine
Where do I belong?
What have I done wrong?

Sun's rise, the day begins
The rain falls and the lonely wind sings
So it has done and so it will do
Even if all life began anew
There'd be no change

Inaudible, truly inaudible they are
My screams and shouts as from top of the world I fall

Have I ever seen anything at all?