A Deafness Too Excessive Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

'A deafness too excessive.'
Are kept thoughts to think to myself,
As I mingle.
But left to leave,
My opinion unexpressed.
And without pre-conceived,
Expectations.

A social gathering of merriment enjoyed.
And from overheard chit-chat tossed about,
Nothing concrete,
Sticks within these walls that matter.
Although representing and with prestige,
Are those flaunting their 'titles'.
As if annointed through their professions.

And...
From them I step aside.
I step away to go outside.
There I find fresh and crisp air.
'Unspoiled.' I want this to believe.
I want to believe it remains untainted.
Clear an unaffected by an innocence kept.

But...
I have long stopped pretending,
My sensitivity is a result...
From being unaware and too naive.
Diversed is my experiences...
To convince anyone,
I re-act with a sensitivity to have that believed.

'A deafness too excessive.'
Are kept thoughts to think to myself,
As I mingle.
But left to leave,
My opinion unexpressed.
And without pre-conceived,
Expectations.

'Perhaps my seriousness of life to take,
To not comprehend why so many...
Live theirs to fake,
Is a delusion I can not shake? '
I question myself.
While sipping on champagne,
To not have my inner thoughts suspected.

And maybe I am too sensitive,
With it not to realized...
What I see and hear to disbelieve,
Is a 'reality' accepted amongst those...
Who have successfully achieved,
A deafness too excessive that has left...
What I perceive to be reality, alone.

~You seem to be thinking with thoughts so deep.~

Not really.
I'm just quietly taking in the atmosphere.
The ambiance of it all.

~REALLY?
I'm bored by it all, myself.
And I'm the host.
But don't hold that against me.
It's a routine.
If you know what I mean? ~

You're kidding?

~If I could tell a joke I would.
I bet you have lots to say?
Much more than the nonsense,
I've already heard.
Success isn't all what it is 'dressed' to be.
Sometimes I feel like an outsider.
Pretending I want to be inside.
And craving to stay within the 'loop'.~

You 'might' want to cover your ears, first.
I only crave to stay who I am.

~LOL...
I love it already.
Let's step outside.
Feel free to offend me as much as you please.
And trust me...
You can say anything.
I'm not like the others who came with deaf ears.~

It is excessive. Overdone but impressive.

~Yes. It is.
But sometimes those impressions made,
Can leave one in tears.~