#99 (After An Encounter With J.) Poem by Medusa Waves

What happens now?
Where do we go from here?
Youve sucked all the life I had, from me
And made it yours.
You've left me dry…
Where do I stand, you ask?
I never know which way to turn,
When you look at me in the eyes, I look away-don't ask me why
Ill never say.
It may be because I feel lost-
Confused and bewildered, too
You say all these things to me, and ask if—I feel them too?
I want to say I do-but I don't want to lie to you
I feel vacant, an empty space, inside of me
And when we kiss I feel a sense of sadness sweep over me
Your selfish to ask for me-to demand this love I cant give
I never knew what it really meant, and i don't want to know-
The thought of loving only you-sounds unfair to me and the world,
I want to explore the world-and all that love has to offer too,
And with you I cant do this.
Can this be goodbye? I feel it so-
But I fear that ill regret it too, and so I hesitate to end it
Because your safe. And always there
I don't want to run back to you, my pride is too large for that-
Should I just stay and hold my thoughts inside me,
Or will they eat away-at all ive got to give.