2/26/2008 Poem by Terrin Fuller

things are getting harder
i dont know whats happening
i am becoming farther
farther away from treatment
farther away from life
farther away from freedom
im not sure why things are going this way
i never thought i would make things like this
just for messing around for a little while
but now they are
and im not sure what to do
should i run, should i stay
i dont know
i hate the feeling of never knowing whats coming
the things that come out of suprise are always the worse
at least for me
i have tried to let things go
but they are starting to explode
im not sure when that day comes
i hope it never does
i have family that cares
there are friends too
i never knew that i would have hurt them
but i have
i have nothing that they should
deal with or with the pain
the pain and heart ache it takes to deal with this
everyone i hope things go good for us all
i love you much
i promise things will be different