041511g Am I Too Hard On Myself Poem by Manonton Dalan

i was forcing myself in my comforter
i feel biting coldness, i thought fever
i'm not sweating nor feeling any pain
i get up and drink a glass of water
look at clock it's pass midnight, it is
curtains are waving at me. that's what

i close windows which bring quietness
vacuum that won't let me back to sleep
i'm catching pitfalls from yesterday's
i was enjoying it until i stumble on some
i forgot my notepad at work or i lost it
hard to pinpoint when mind overloads