Panda Eyes

I want a baby
A cuddly baby with hardly no hair
That smells of talcum powder and
That special baby smell
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My world is crumbling around around me
But I carry on dreaming

My hopes are being trampled on
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Lets fall in love, make it an art
Show them how its done
Write each other poems
And blow kisses
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What could have been
And never was
But should have been
And never will be
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My lady cave
That men fear
But secretly desire
Full of unspoken secrets
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The way you look at me repulses me
The way you talk
I cant stand the mere sight of you
I hate your mouth, the shape of your nose
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Yes use me
Talk to me when you’re lonely
And then forget about me
When you have somebody new
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I like violence
It excites me
Its rawness, its simplicity
Pure animalistic behaviour
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Sinning, sinning everyday
My sins follow me everywhere
Like a second shadow
Reminding me of my inadequacy
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You watch as they speak & laugh
You’re in their circle but not one of them
You speak their language
But they dont speak yours
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We’re engulfed in darkness,
Hands around me, theres no where to escape
My cries carry through the night
You angrily curse at me,
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Oh but I’m just a doll,
Living, breathing, wasting
With orange lipstick all over my face
I’ll smile for you, pose for you
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Its just another day

Its just another day
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He’s not what I want
(And I’m crying)
He’s not what I crave
(The tears are falling)
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Oh if only our mothers knew
About our lost loves
About our late night adventures
Lost in the middle of the street
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Sometimes I go on the train
Even if I have nowhere to go
I listen to sad music
And pretend that I’m in a film
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So my friend the year is nearly over
And a fresh start is edging closer
So much has happened to me
Yet I am still not free
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Oh baby I dont love you anymore
And I never did
I tried and I tried
Oh I tried my very best
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This is a random poem
Its for you, him, anyone
And the fish have stopped speaking but
I’m dancing in the floating lights
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I don’t want to
I dont want to
I don’t want to
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