Nyl Revol

You don't see my eyes
Fill with tears
You don't see my mind aging
Like its been years.
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I cry to myself
Each night.
Each smile, each laugh
Is a fight.
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I've given you so many chances,
And you've only let me down.
I've tried to show a smile,
But it's replaced with a frown.
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Lying on the cold cement
Red surrounding me
Spots in front of my eyes
I think
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How's that oblivious world you live in?
Is it any fun?
Are there other people?
Or are you the only one?
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My heart is breaking
My body's shaking
And my lips are faking
A smile.
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When I see your name
Light up on my screen
I think of ignoring you
But that'd be too mean.
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Do you really care?
I'm not sure you do.
Do you care about me,
As much as I care about you?
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Glue
Spilled on my desk
Papers getting stuck
While I stand there.
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Everyone says goodnight
I don't have the nerve
To point out that
It's not good.
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Into my life,
You are interfering,
And I wanna run
I am disappearing.
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This depression
From my secret obsession
Because my mind is always
Hooked on you.
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I got the little bottle
With the magic little pill
I can't wait for the moment
To be fufilled.
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You're trying to hide it
But I can see
The pain inside of you
And it's pulling at me
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Does it count
Yea
Is it really
Yea
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I lay
On the bed
Looking at your face.
You've sat there
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I close my eyes
And let down my gaurd.
Just like before,
It comes; hits me hard.
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The pain I can control
The pain that makes me whole
The pain that stops and brings some tears
The pain that erases all my fears
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