neo riddick

It's been a bad year
3 times’ I have taken a load of pills
1 time I looked at the dogs and tried to vomit them back up
2 times. well...........It just didn’t take
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just watching
all around
i spotted beauty... approaches
my curiosity, so high
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Scales
tape measures
calorie counters
red peppers
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No one could understand me or the things that I do.
just a lost soul searching for that one to make me feel whole
everything happens for a reason. the answers we seek are in the very questions we ask.
so in love I was. But a constant battle of wits, and things that needed to be said were never
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The only way i am truly at peace is when i watch the blood flow
dark, thick, warm & flowing, even gushing
from my arms or the throat of another
relieving the pain for now
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Things are just a mess. the world as we know it is under absolute distress
which gun is stronger. which is just not
high end this, high end that
mood swings horrid enough to melt the mind
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Fixated on the worlds demise
lurking about in the darkest place in my mind is where it all began
a quiet calm takes over as these hands cover your mouth
gasping for your breath. hot salty tears trickle down.
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This house is in a state of unrest
I'm trying so hard to do my best
picking up pieces of the dead, thats my goal
along with this career, i realize that i have no soul
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Please, just stop, leave me alone. No one can come in.
The frustration. I am empty. I am without a soul.
Do not expect much from me, for I can do no good.
I cannot show u love. To all that have entered my life,
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Other side of the world
thats just where you may be
the connection we had was so hard to believe
in your arm's is where all my pain was released
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That's what I always manage to do
with or without you
I savor the time I spend alone, writing poems in my room
these simple actions are just a sign that I am pulling away. That's what most assume
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Jealousy and hate consumes your soul
Put a foot wrong and lose your control
Your digging and digging till you make a hole
So fake everyday you play out a role
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For all the people I surround myself with.
For everyone else, I don’t exist
So many people can never relate to my thoughts. My words. My ways. My style
There are so many more of ME though. I never knew this until I reached out. Not physically, but with words.
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This Is For Me
so many years of pain.
self inflicted. of course
trying to feel was my intention
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Everyday a new flower is born
Its destiny unknown
Some will grow and flourish
Some will wilt and die
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I know what i am
i know i am gonna die
so much sooner than most
i push and push
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In the middle of the house is the 'forbidden room'
a, k.a. the kitchen
i had a moment of weakness
expected
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Say it again
my eyes are pure evil
I'm mean and nasty
i have no remorse
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