24 years old woman born in the small township of Meqheleng in Ficksburg, raised by a single parent. Little sister to two brothers and an aunt to one nephew and one niece.)
I Didn't Know Then What I Know Now
It was September 27
She came up to me
Breath enclosed into the bars of her ribs
Then I thought, I thought I would experience ones heart sprint out of them
Reveals and snitch on them
But by all means she tried to remain subtle
Contained and retained her voice
And her eyes remained with mine
And in that moment I, I lost myself
But my brain was there telling me that she is staring..
especially when I smile.
But sadly I didn't know then what I know now
Palm of her hands itched
And I could see her hand swing back and forth to touch me
She didn't know then if it was acceptable
And when I looked into her eyes
I could see the deep shallow waters that bring the..
drumbeat thumps to the floor below
Surrounded by surreal trees of wonder
Where flowers just blossom in wonder
Wondering who would pick them up and give them love
Wondering who would leave them there and appreciate from a distant
And in all this beauty
I didn't know then what I know now
But there was definitely something about her when she called my name
I stood there poised and appreciative
Because just like Tsholofelo Rabotsho I was her cinnamon
Yet she had unwritten letters to my heart
She had built up words in her heart only her actions can show
And I sometimes thought all this was for show
But sometimes love never comes cloaked in a coat of evil deeds
And her only deed was her trying to please me
In plain sight she was for me
But everybody had known then that her heart beats for me
And sadly I didn't know then what I know now.
Precisely I could be a selfish soul
A shadow of unshed tears
Such emptiness
A soul that ploughs to harvest fruits of its own kind
Toiling to work on me before I work on her, him, them, us, we.
And when I tired of it all
Palms covering my face
My chin she tilted up
Eyes making love to mine
And she whispered
If happiness looks anything like you
Then tonight I am not sleeping alone
Sadly I didn't know then what I know now
She was ready to love me
Even as I came like a cracked mirror
She was ready to love me
And sadly she didn't know then what I know now
I loved her just as much