Lucky Sinner

well lets think back
go back to the days
where things where smooth
dint have to worry about anything
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i see the happiness of my lyf
the perfect world i wished for
a group of frnds on whm i can rely
the luv of my lyf who is there for me
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Life is a race
And the map is a maze
I carried the emotion of the people
The once tht i cared for
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i wonder y god has brought us together
wen we cant b with each other
is he plannin smethin better for the near future
i wudnt wanna question him for he noes better
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I find myself alone on the bench
As i feel my heart crunch
Wondering where did it go rong
Things felt like they cudnt prolong
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I am done I have said that a million time
I keep forgetting what is mine
I give in and walk to the people I hold dear
Just to let my self respect tear
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Being selfless has got me so far
I only see people be selfish
It's always about them and rarely about me
I went with the flow tried being there for them
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I can see the path that I need to take
It's just that I need to be wake
I walk towards the path
Small steps at a time
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You are my what
A question asked
Several times to myself
An answer you never answered yourself
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Sitting alone in darkness
All I can feel is emptiness
There is this hole in my heart
That I can't seem to fill
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I have longed love, the unconditional love. where you know everything is perfect
Where you know this is the person you want to share all your happiness and sadness with
Where you know no matter how violent the world gets, talking to that person will put you at peace
Where you know you can live all your fantasies with
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I don't know what the world expects out of me
I am going to give what I can
But expect nothing in return
Expectation can literally kill you
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The pain that I feel inside
I can't express it no more
I have tried several times
Speak it out and not keep it aside
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I hurt I hurt
I bleed I bleed
Pick myself only to find
I hurt I hurt
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I try not to shed a tear
I live my life out of the fear
One day it's all going to vanish
Everything that I have built so far
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