Melissa Leddy

Nothing better to do with my life
Might as well end it.
Sitting here alone tonight
Like every night-
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I'm tired of people seeing 'potential' in me
I want them to see the beauty in me
I'm sick of being seen as a nobody
I want everyone to see that I'm a somebody
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Tears threaten with each breath
Memories tear at my heart
Redemption- lost in times of turmoil
Pride eats at my thoughts
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Make me believe somehthing happy
Please make me think something nice
It's not that I don't want to think better of myself
Because every single day I try.
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trying to find the reasons i cry
searching my pocket dictionary
how pathetic it is, still i wonder why
and how will descriptions even help me?
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I can’t rise above,
I can’t find the will.
I can’t live my life…
But I want to still.
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The trees without leaves,
Without swaying in the breeze,
The trees without leaves,
Give back the leaves, please.
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Rock a bye baby,
Hush, go to sleep.
Try not to find me,
For I am too weak.
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When the night air touches my skin-
I feel I'm at home; I welcome it in.
And when I'm alone is when I feel me
turning into the night.
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The smoke comes out of my lungs
But stays in my mind
A cloud of despair hangs over my head
From what he left behind
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What could you have, might have been
Besides the world to me?
What would you have, should have been
If destiny we had beat?
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I just want to die
Leave me alone tonight
You've never cared as I cired
So there's nothing you can do now to make it alright
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It's growing colder now
More dark is setting in
It's getting harder now
I can't hold myself in
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Counting, counting- constantly
Numbers, words, and movements
There's never quiet inside my head
Is there any way to silence this?
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Counting the stars, smelling the breeze
There's no other time that I'd rather be
Everything is different, it's all been transformed
This black mass around me now feels like the norm.
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Melissa Mary
Ain't so scary
It's just all that I have to work with
Melissa Mary
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I sleep better at night
because i am comfortable with it
but after a long, awkward day
i want to soak in every bit
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I'm okay with this night being a silent one
I'm finally fine with the peace it brings me
I'm alright though no one is here to talk to
I'm actually glad that no one can see
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I give up- no more trying
I messed up and now I'm dying
I loved you, I mistook love
I wanted you, got pushed and shoved
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What are these tears?
They are worthless and scared
Tired and alone
Judgement impaired
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