Lynn Stillman

With much of a struggle
up the tower I climb.
Weighed down by anger,
by sorrow,
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My mind can be quite the prankster.
Just as mischchievous as it can be.
When a little confidence decides,
to kick back and settle in,
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you said you would
always be there for me.
You even wrote those
very words, on a piece of paper
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Sometimes I look at my life,
and I feel like I am again
the nameless and invisible
kid in school.
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Looking at the magazine covers,
in the checkout line at the grocery story.
Thin, perfect movie stars, the latest diets
then recipes for the fattiest cakes and cookies
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I have seen all of the beauty
that can be seen in this life.
My remote, vantage point,
overtaken by anger and hopelessness
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A photo album,
made up of pictures
taken by my mind's eye.
In flight, an eagle
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Sometimes I need.
And that brings fear.
Can't get too close to happy.
Knowing a long dropp is near.
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I have always been here
in this house of time.
The rooms, like hours,
empty and unadorned.
...

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Don't forget, that I remember
the real person that you are.
You are the one, who will start
talking behind the back of
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Once, the hands of the clock
seemed to gently caress my face.
Reinforcing the reassurance.
My tears, not yet mature enough
...

I step into the night sky,
I find a path of stars
to walk across.
The path seems familiar to me.
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The night,
so endless.
Having such an apathetic influence
over the conscious mind.
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Where are you from?
Why are you so fat?
You are not the right color.
What kind of a name is that?
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At fifteen years of age,
you are born.
Born perhaps prematurely,
into manhood.
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Tonight I lie wide awake in my room.
Too afraid of the horrific dreams,
that plague me.
It gives me too much time to think.
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My heart is just about done.
It has been steeping in generous amounts,
of pain and anger
for so long now.
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Breaking and entering,
no heart is safe from this crime.
You invest all you have in trusting another,
your hopes, your dreams and precious time.
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Innocence dies so young,
when guns are brought for show and tell.
Will we recognize heaven,
if we cannot see that war is hell?
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