Lulu Muffin

I held that memory
for just a second longer.
I held you before that memory
would vanish away
...

I sit outside, watching the rain pour down,
the roads becoming flooded,
the plants are drenched in,
and the soil has become one huge mud pie.
...

The world is a dark place,
you stand out,
you wonder what youre place in the world is.
The world is a quite place.
...

I am longing for the brilliant moment where I get to see your face.
Where I get to hear the snicker in your laugh.
Where I can see the love in your smile.
Where I can hear the innocence in your words.
...

she loved the sweet scent he possesed.
the brilliant white smile
that he carried on with him even when he was angry.
she loved the wardobe he possesed,
...

why is it always that when you feel for someone
when you write there name down
on that crumpled piece of paper
that it makes you happy inside; joyful
...

You smiled at me that one afternoon,
for no reason at all.
When your big brown eyes were
casted upon my face
...

i know youve moved on.
you no longer linger on the random occasions
of hand holding, and the innocent kissing.
you no longer cast that beautiful smile for me,
...

sitting outside on that cold gravel street,
that one august night, complete strangers
you asked me
'have you ever loved someone so much
...

while in the halls at school,
you no longer try to throw in
that innocent little peck on the lips.
when we walk alongside eachother
...

so ive been sitting here lately,
just analyzing summer,
and ive made some acute realisations.
people change
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it was almost as though
everything we ever stood for
had gone astray into mid air.
it was like a state of re-birth
...

and this time i meant it,
everything we speak about tonight
will be forgotten in the long run,
just like everything we once yearned about.
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there were once nights, when i would go to bed,
and cry myself to sleep.
feeling so longely, and unwanted
i felt as though life,
...

if i were to die tomorrow
there are many things i would change.
i would love all the people
i have ever hated.
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im falling, im falling
catch me, catch me
brab me by the arm
and help me out of this mess.
...

so its like that friendships triangle in dawsons creek between joey potter, pacey witter, and well dawson leery. dawsons in madly in-love with joey, and joey and pacey are beginning to have feelings for eachother; falling in-love. the whole tragedy is that they sneak around dawsons back for the longest time.

is that how its supposed to be? three best friends falling apart because of one love. well thats what it is. you try and try to seal things back together with the other two. but, nothing will help it hurts so much, its as though you are like the lab of meat that gets thrown into the cage with the seven lions, all defastatingly hungry.
...

but still at times you need to repeat my name
under a hushed voice because you like the sweet taste
...