Lost Soul

I remember all the times I used to smile
All the times i jumped for joy when i was just a child
All the times I thought I was in a world of make believe
Thinking everything surrounding me thinks twice before leaving me
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Sitting in my dark corner, rocking myself.
Trying to wake this dormant heart of mine.
Memories of the pain shooting across my eyes.
Pain so vivid, so deep, so real.
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Lost within my words, remembering why you left.
Rage burns in my heart for reasons I cannot confess.
Thoughts in my head circulating for answers.
Pain becoming stronger, spreading deep in my soul, like cancer.
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A lonely tear falls from an eye,
Not sure why its been shed.
And as it slowly trickles by,
It finds a spot to make its bed.
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In its arms, I lay cold.
Holding me tightly, never to let go
of what it has captured.
Hoping to possess the spirit of thy Lost Soul
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To a special friend that helped me during my darkest days.
To a special friend that showed me that loves comes in many ways.
To a special friend that is able to understand my grueling pain.
To a special friend that helped me find all my lost remains.
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I remember vaguely looking into your eyes for the every first time.
Almost as if a star were upon them,
When you would glare at me they would shine.
But thou perfection lied within your heart with a smile.
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Love gone bad, cutting deep into my heart.
My world falling to pieces, slowly turning dark.
The nightmare creeping up my spine, painfully seeping in.
Wounds beneath my skin begin to reopen and sting.
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A smile all of a sudden takes over my face.
All those good times, replaying like an old tape.
Remembering those moments we had, thinking it had gone to waste.
You took my heart showering it with such love and grace.
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Another day I have to wake with out you by my side.
My heart crushing of the hurt. Crushing of the lies.
The thirst and hunger taking over me. Limb by limb.
With out you, this life is a battle I would dream to win.
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I can no longer breathe.
I can no longer take this pain in my heart.
I can no longer live with out you.
But what do you care, your the one who left me
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If I had you
Would my pain cease, will I be able to smile?
If I had you
Would this nightmare end, will I finnaly be alive?
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For so many years I thougt love was dead.
Till i met the angel from up above the granted my wish and said:
'I love you':
Such heart warming words finnaly said to me.
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When all seemed like nothing could ever be right,
My world was shooken by the earthquak of your love.
But this time the earthquake of love did not make me fall
For it took me off my feet for the very first time.
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Forever I will never understand why you quit.
I made a mistake and that was it.
My lies are meant to hide the truth behind who I am
I tell them for the simple reason, that you will never understand.
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On this day of March 4, shall my past be ridden from my memory.
Shall my Angel fight with me in the battles to come.
Take the sword of wisdom and fight away the darkness Ive been hidden in
Shall my creator give me back my heart, my will, my strength.
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O to my friend, my dearest friend.
My mistakes are unforgiveable
Thou lies of mine are unforgettable
The love and hope you gave me, for I shall cherish it
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Ashes fall from the black sky as memories start to burn and fade.
Our hearts turn dark from the shadows of loves shade.
Illusions dragging me into its merciless love game.
Clutching me from the heart, watching it as it bleeds of love.
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I awake and see darkness surrounding me
I stand on the edge of my fears
And relive my nightmares that wont let me be
Till the sun rises and shows me the light
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