Leilei Shirley Wu

Everyone's dealing with their own disaster
I'm too busy putting out the fire
Everyone's running away from the thunder
Makes my rainy day more like a shower
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I leave my chalk outline on the floor,
Stand up and close the door
It doesn't matter who put the last straw on my back
It doesn't matter who made the final stab
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Listen to your mom
Cause she's always right
When she tells you to take a bath
When she asks you to go to bed
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All I needed was a sign for me to not let go
And none of this will happen
All I needed was a few words you will later say
And none of our hearts will break
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It's kind of fun playing the victim for once
Knowing what it's like to be the innocent one

My body is cold
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I thought about the roses you gave me every week
I thought about the kisses on my cheek
I thought about the whisper when you thought I was asleep
Then I smiled cause then I think about the next person I'll meet
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I'm traveling light tonight
Cause I already have too much in my mind
The sudden rain clears out the whole street but not me
Cause I have nowhere else to hide
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I thought I could forget about you if I leave this place but I
can't stop thinking about you wherever I go I feel the pain inside
What happens when my love to you and hate I can't withdraw collide?
I told myself not to be afraid and let you rest in peace in my mind
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Yes, I know this is what I asked for and this is just all my fault
And perhaps one day I'd be able to forgive you about your jilt
But now I'm just sadly surprised how you can not feel any guilt
After all you were the one who insist to put this ring on my finger
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My head is spinning
My heart is breaking
I know I shouldn't be feeling this way
I should be strong for everyone's sake
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I feel relief
Letting go of something that was probably never mine
Letting go of someone who could really use a break
Letting go of the pain that has been hurting us ever since I remember
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Smash me
Without mercy

Leave me on the floor and turn your heels away
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I don't blame you for being cruel
Because this is what you needed to do
I'd wave to you like the sky's still blue
I'd smile every time I see you
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I can’t remember what was that I put into my mouth
I can’t tell what is that I taste bleeding out my tongue
I can’t recognize who is that I see looking back at me
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I'm in a downward spiral destruction
not stopping until i hit bottom
Screwing myself, making mistakes, falling apart
Like this is a fun parade for my broken heart
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Your betrayal taste a little bit sour
Like those unendurable hours
When you will lie silently next to me with your eyes opened and mouth closed
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11月 6日
What's the recipe of disaster
How do you destroy someone
How do you kill the innocence inside them
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Put myself back together in a five minutes walk
Wear on my sweetest smile
And fake my happiest tone
Bury my anger and all the words that haven't come out of my mouth
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After forty seven days of struggling
I now finally feel alive
By letting go of you and your lies
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Doing tequila shots
Dressing like this winter is hot
Acting like we can never get caught
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