Jhon Doe

When I started out I wanted to make people happy and smile
and let them feel good about themselves
and that made me happy... for a while
but it's just not the same anymore
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To all of you that bug me
It’s really not hard to see
That I can’t stand you
yes, yes, it’s true
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I know it’s there
and it won’t go away
it’s been there so long
I thought it was here to stay
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When you see me in the hall
you just look right through me
When you talk to me
it is like you don't even see me
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I never said what I meant to say
I never did what I meant to do
just sat back and watched the world go by
and never stood or meant anything to anyone
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You have done so much for me
you have given me back something I thought I lost
a smile
you gave me something I never truly had
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I can't believe I fell for this trick
the mere mention makes my stomach sick
I said yes then you said it too
I thought I would be so proud to be one of the few
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Some things never change
I will always be cold
you will always be warm
I will always run from the ones that can make it right
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Is it really worth it
all the pain you have caused
I know you don't try
but the pain is still too great
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I could ask you to forgive
I could ask for you to forget
and you would
but I don't want you to
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I sat down to let my heart sing
let it sing of the sorrow it felt when it saw you two together
to let it sing of feelings of betrayal and anger
but now as I sit, I realize
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If I moved a mountain
would it
bring me any closer to a real answer?
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I can’t remember the last time I felt this way
and I don’t care that you don’t know my name
because, with every glance you pass my way
my feelings get farther and farther from the same
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I wish I could believe
as devotedly as you do
but no matter how hard I try
I can’t make myself blind
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I lean on the wall all on my own
so very much alone
the music is so loud
and not a friend I have found
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