jenn steger

I'm sitting here mystified and numbed with pain
To lose someone so close, yet so far away.
Some say you can't lose something you never had.
If that's true, then how can I feel this sad?
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If I could have just one more day and
wishes did come true,
I'd spend every glorious moment
side by side with you.
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I wish I could give you many more years. I wish I could erase away all of your tears.
I want to take away all of your pain. I want to give you sunshine in the rain.
May each new day be a perfect gift. May love surround you, may your spirits lift.
If someone had to describe you so many words come to mind. Beauty and grace, a heart so kind.
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something about you makes me smile.something about you makes me feel so comfortable. something about you made me fall in love with you.

you put the pieces of my heart together, kept it together for so long.
something about you was able to made me silly around you, without feeling dumb or stupid.
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Every day im getting sadder, because that day is getting near, the day i will leave... the day that you fear.
And i dont know what i will do, when you are no longer here... the day that fear.
Im going to miss you, theres no doubt in my mind, tears on my cheek everyone will find.
i know im going to cry, i can not tell a lie. i know its going to be hard, when we say our last goodbye. Although we can keep in touch, ill miss seeing you very much.
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Now i used to dream a nightmare, now i am smiling from outside, people think i am living but inside im dying!
Go away go away, i know i cant stop you! : (just be happy and smiling always, i know that you can do! : (
You were my life and now my life gone away, im living with endless waiting, waiting for the rain in hell!
I just wanna say goodbye, I just go to live life alone my side, i know that you will remember me too only for a bit but am totally right!
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Every day i wake up, with a bit of pain, pain in my heart beats the pain in the brain!
All the memories with you, i cant forget them, i tried so many times for it, but i cant erase all this damn!
Now i used to live with the pain. im walking with the pain, for pain the you're not with me anymore. I cried like the heavy rain!
sometimes i felt like dumb, when i think what i used to do! i was really crazy the time, and i am addicted to you too!
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My life is now my delusion,
A world made of fantasies.
Happiness is no longer the illusion,
My life is my new disease.
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