Jay Bunny

I'm hot look at me
I've got anxiety
I'm skinny cuz I don't eat
Don't laugh that's not funny
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Waking up a broken mess..
all the wrong sides of the bed.
This feels normal now cause all the other feelings are dead.
I’m going through the motions that take me through my day.
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Mirror Mirror, I'm so ashamed....
It's all your fault, your to blame.
Paint this picture in front of me,
You leave no room for me to breathe.
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I take these pills, I drink, I smoke
I spew my food, I puke, I choke
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My pretty little life, so cute and exciting
No one knows all the pain built up inside me
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Trying hard not to fall accustom to this money hungry world,
Society is so selfish and scared to let go of what we hold.
As the richer get richer and poorer get poorer,
Nothing is ever good enough and still we want more.
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See me popping these pills again
Smelling that liquor on my breath again
That race against time I've lost again
Into the wrong arms I fell into again
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Automatic guard
is up and it protects my heart
but when i try to bring it down
i end up lying on the ground again,
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It's better not to include you
into my pain, into this game
We live our lives, feeding you lies
Smother the pain, smile through the shame
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Your Golden Heart is pure
Love is the only cure
Your stronger than the pain
Don't let it give you shame
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Can't feel my pain
I shut you out again
Your selfish mind frame
Can't see it's my shame
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Drunk from the attention,
I stumble away from you.
I’m not ready for a commitment,
and your not ready for me too.
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The waves of emotions full up in my mouth
I only ate this much so I can puke it out
Or I’ll binge drink cuz I cant feel it It.
It swallow it down, up; to the toilet I spit
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Instead of giving you the benefit of the doubt
I’m walking away quietly, whispering this I won’t shout
If I could steal your thoughts, I’d hope they’d be of me
I’d give you some of mine and maybe help you see
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Live the life you want, want the life you live.
Protect yourself you must, and your heart you should wisely give.
Baby steps have gotten me here, scars on my feet tell the story.
My heart shaped world spirals up and down, and the truth lies right before me.
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My soul was sold
By the words you told
by the rules you hold
Intimitate, I fold
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Cupid’s shooting blanks
Walk all over you.
Tear open your heart
Every last breath out of you.
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Dancing daily in the love you give for you and me.
Still unsure how this happened but I dance so purposely.
Night and day the words you say give comfort in my heart.
Unknowing where it’s going but embracing how it starts.
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Influenced by my surroundings I have hurt myself again.
The pain and grieving of my lost heart kills me over and over again and again.
My whole life continues to remind me of the world as it once was.
So I numb with work, with food, with pain with drugs.
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Dear Eating disorder,
my closest friend and worst enemy
No one knows what you do to me
I use you to numb the pain
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