Jade's Pain

I'm sad now but I don't really know why....
I knew me and you would be back together but
I still stressed over the fact that you was gone....
If God plays his magic game, then me and you
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Crimson:
The color of the liquid that now flows from her wrist. She
turned to her trusty 'friend' that's never failed her.
Razor:
...

I have a secret love, one that must not be spoken of.
She's beautiful & I secretly admire her soft spoken ways.
Why cant she notice me? Why cant I be seen by her?
She's an amazing girl & I want to experience life with
...

As I sit by my window looking out;
I notice myself begin to pout.

I'm pouting because of you;
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You're the best friend ever;
the one who'll go away never.
The one who I can talk to;
noone understands me the way you do.
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Roses are beautiful;
Violets are too.
Reread the first line;
That's what I think of you.
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I love this person but do they love me.Love's a mystery; you dont know what you have until its gone, what if it just fade's away.
Love is so complicated, like a brain teaser. Its tricky but then when you get it, it's not fun aymore.
I wish our love was strong, maybe a dose of steroids to boost up the strength.
What is love really, is it a thought of imagination, like a fairytale full of dream and laughter.
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Were do I begin... I've been hurt outta love &
I think it's funny how love brings so much pain.
The pain of being lied to, the pain of the jealousy
taken over, & the pain of your body shutting down
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You are the brightening of my day;
the one who makes all the clouds go away.
You are the apple of my eye;
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There's this one girl who's name states it all, she's the
one who solves my life. She helps me throughout my
day. When I'm down & when I need comfort her shoulder 's
always availiable. I love this girlie because she's always
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I've been imagining it when I close my eyes
& try to picture you infront of me. It's like when
two people decide to have there first kiss. How
they both lean in & there's a split moment of hesitation,
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I love Tati, she loves me, we're a lesbian family,
with a great big hug and a kiss from me to her.
She always says she loves me too.
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I'm stuck in this world all alone and in shame...
I'm miserable now because I got left for someone
who doesn't truely care.
This person doesn't love you because there just
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I'm so confused at this moment without a clue
what to do;
I'm so confused at this moment because I thought
your love was true.
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I kept my heart open & available & you stole it....
but I kinda gave it to you in a way...I guess.
I told you that you could rent it for awhile & that if you
wanted to own it then you would have to give me yours
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