Fernando Alvarez

Suicide is the answer
To many questions asked.
It hides inside of you
But it will be unmasked.
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You asked, 'How are you doing? ' As I tell you, tears came to my eyes….
And you looked away and quickly began to talk again.
All the attention you had given drained away.
'How am I doing? '
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Turn the clock back.
Time after time.
Upside down icicles drip.
Turn my life inside out.
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Please forgive me
I never meant to be
I loved you but I had to let you free
You died because of me
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I miss your laughter, fun, and gentleness.
I miss the things I used to do for you.
I miss the time, now filled with emptiness,
When each day was a stage for something new.
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Each moment of love remains like a song
In the flow of our lives, in the lilt of our years,
Gripping our thoughts in its simple refrain,
Healing with beauty our unanswered pain,
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Here
every single day
Where
can I get away?
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I hate me
I hate u for loving me
I hate that I need u
I hate that you love me
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Love me
For what I am
Hate me
For what I've done
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I love you more than life itself
But I’m afraid to love.
My heart is like the fragile wings
Of a tiny little dove.
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You murdered me
Killed me in cold blood
Made me fall
Left me here to die
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I feel the blade dig into my skin.
The feelings of depression released from within.
The blood leaks out from my cut.
As I keep my teary eyes shut,
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I stare into the mirror.
Staring at what looks like me,
But isn't.
That's not my reflection.
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The broken mirror
You used to look in
The blood around you
And your clenched fist
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Slamming doors
Breaking windows
Tearing down all barricades
I need to get out
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Whatever you do
Don't give me a gun
My life is dark and blue
And I am done
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Pretty little razor blade
Shining so pretty
Come smile at me
Reflections showing
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In the middle of the night
The wolf howls, and so do I.
For the darkness that surrounds it.
In the middle of the night
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Have you ever fallen so fast
You didn't know what was happening,
Or where you were falling to?
Have you ever smacked into the wall so hard,
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Sometimes I just sit there
And cut till I bleed
Because I never get
The attention that I need.
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