Cori Arbuss

When I'm sorry's not enough
When I love you's too much
When you hurt me's not fair
When songs of the dearly departed just sting
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Though we shun ourselves out of own lives
And seek solice in the warm voices of friends
Though we never truly knew how we ourselves felt
As a whole, a being, to flee to the end
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What a dear girl, voices softly whisper
Touching her perfection, to gain their own
Yet not one would dare to kiss her
For they walk on as his drones
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My heart was pounding
Palpitating
Existing without you.
Its extracting
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There's just so much there
So much left unsaid and undone.
So much left to be thought, contemplated, and reworked
So much that could be manipulated and changed/
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Forget it all. Come fly away.
Release all tension and pain.
We'll soar over the ocean and the plains
Mountain sides and mudslides
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I'm just so confused these days.
All I want is for someone to hold me.
For HIM to hold me.
But what I want even more is to be rid of that desire.
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Ectopic dreams and stillborn nightmares
Chills and shockwaves breaking my sytem
Destroy, destroy
Depleat me, my desperado
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Cut this picture up
Of me and you
You're leaving me breathless
Convulsious and nauseous
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Trapped in a corner, trapped forever more
Trapped and locked within my fantasies
Of a love so painful, it took over my entire vision
No one could save me...no one would save me...
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I'm picking up the pieces
Slowly put surely
I'm just a girl whose lost in this giant, immaculate world
But I'm finding myself
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Bound at the soul and eternally one at the heart
We will together cross this path over to our new plane of existance
Getting high off our own scents and flying around with these black gods
We will live this life as one
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This is the story of the girl that was blue
Big round eyes loomed over a stiched on smile
And her torn little heart was glued together and sprinkled with glitter
She bumbled about the world all gleaming and astral
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Was this ever real?
I get the feeling more than ever it was all an illusion
The scars are real, the pain is real, but the memories
Are lost forever
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Forever, it seems, I will follow
Stalk you in the night, in my sorrow
Etching broken words into my breast
Only you can fix the rest
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I'm falling, slowly failing
Them all again
Though pen and paper has denied me
I have found a new source of release
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'He never existed. He was never real.
Nothing ever happened.
He never existed. He never will.
He's never been there. And yet, he dies today.'
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The mirage has been shattered
With these pieces of my second self
Searing my flesh and splinters
Ripping through my heart
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Forever more, the blessed be
Forever falling, they shant desire
Forever waiting, the angels sigh
Forever needing their golden lyre
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