Caroline Guedes

I look at my reflection
and see all my imperfections
I start making a list
of all the changes I wish
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Her alarm clock was always set for 7: 39
She was the kind of person who was always on time
She gave a piece of herself to everyone she knew
She always had an answer for every question you threw
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When you look at me
I see so many things
I see the intensity of your feelings for me
I see your insecurites
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Food doesn't tempt me anymore
I only sleep due to exhaustion
I wake up with pain in my ribs
My poor heart has been broken
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How I wish I could squeeze your hand
and tell you this is not the end
I pray that you'd believe me
You're lying on a small hospital bed
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I can't stop you from leaving
I can't make you change your mind
Your heart is set on soaring
Just come back to me in time
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I've painted chevrons on the road leading to me
I've written poems in the clouds hoping you'd see
I've worn your favourite colour as a sign
I've been daydreaming, hoping you'd be mine
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I woke up today with a dominating urge
to pack my suitcase, get my cds and my purse
I'm going to drive, drive, drive
but it's not like I want to leave it all behind
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I'll keep driving until the tank is empty
Until the memories fade away
I heard a song that reminded me
Of all those painful days
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Bought a ticket for a train
swam the deepest underwater caves
booked a flight on a plane
but I found nothing had changed
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I've run a bath but the water's too hot
and it burns my skin
But I lie in there regardless, hoping
it'll melt my pain within
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I've lost my mind
such a sweet thing to lose
Anyone with a mind would
not think of the things I do
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I don't mean to hurt you
But I've been concealing it for so long
That I feel I might burst
Do you know how it feels to have
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Beware of the butterflies
for they may sting
They may appear beautiful
but have poison-tipped wings
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Opening credits
scene starts of clean
you and me meeting
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Strangers in a second, that is what you are
Past lovers, future haters
When did the colossal change occur?
Was it while I slept, was it while you were at work?
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Just finished reading a book
Plot was twisted, filled with lies
About a little girl who was so afraid
of her parents, of the world outside
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Bare feet
feeling the sand between my toes
feels like summer
another summer alone
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How am I the pebble in your shoe?
When not long ago I was the cream in your coffee
What seemed to me a dream coming true
materialized the tears of a thousand seas
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I know if I call you, you won't answer
but yet your phone number is the only one in my head
It makes no difference if I pick up the
reciever. The ring tone will only sound dead
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