Burn Javier

I woke up today from a nightmare
Where I was dying slowly inside
When I looked thoroughly, deeply
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Is it a crime to move on
from loving you...the way that I do
to stem the flood of my tears
from flowing freely, draining me
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She used to be my world
I lived only for her happiness
Because her smile illuminated
The dark corners of my Heart
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I give up...
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How do you say goodbye
To someone who left you a long time ago
…It’s like Screaming to the wall…
Comprehension is not forthcoming!
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This is how it begins

Pain settles in, it sears the soul, it burns you whole
It leaves you empty, defeated, without recourse but acceptance
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Is the realization that you are not loved as much as you love

You are not everything, as much as they are to you
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Hope is for the damned
What need of it the blessed?
Hope remembered only in distress
Is it ever uttered by the fortunate?
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The eyes have lost their luster
It does not light the way anymore

It draws you in as it ever has
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I don't love LOVE anymore
It has reared its ugly head
Euphoria is gone, Pain is all
Was my momentary Happiness real?
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…was not strong…
…Enough…to save my…
…Heart… is shattered to…
…Pieces…separated by…
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I wish tomorrow would never come
Another day to endure the same pain
Reminding me I'm alive
To go through this all over again
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Tonight the MOON turned from me
Her luminance forsaking me
The light to her trail extinguished
Erasing the way HOME
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She was never mine
I was a FOOL to believe
I roped the moon
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When will my TEARS run out?
I truly want to know...
Knowledge will help me
Get through these tough times
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